|Age, 26 - this girl was not often afraid|
Pup was out of town over the weekend golfing with his sister and her family.
I was originally going, but was gently told that crappy golfers like myself are not welcome on the courses these good golfers would be going to. I was going to hang out on the cart and I don't know what else.
As it turned out I was unexpectedly scheduled to work and had to bow out. So I stayed home and had fun in spite of myself.
I am a crappy golfer. Worse than a crappy golfer.
Part of it is intimidation. Which kinda pisses me off. Why would I allow myself to be intimidated?
I've asked Pup to golf with me, but bottom line I can see that he isn't that into helping a newbie. Or it's me projecting my fears. I don't know!
I don't even exactly know what I'm working through in this moment.
Because if I don't take care of my fears who will? I do have lots of fears that I have to plow through. All the time. Sometimes I am really good at it. I can rear right up into the face of it and holler! Other times I sidestep the fear like the crab (Cancer per my horoscope!) I am.
So . . . let my fears pile up? Hunt a few down and do them in?
I'm not just talking golf here people.
This week I will load my rifle and get me some fear. I will hang the heads on my wall and feel boastful that I killed that one . . . and that one . . . and that one.
You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
~ Eleanor Roosevelt
The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.
~ Elbert Hubbard
The enemy is fear. We think it is hate; but, it is fear.
Of all the liars in the world, sometimes the worst are your own fears.
~ Rudyard Kipling