Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Speak or Quell?
Get on your horse and ride.
~Marshall Matt Dillon
Charmingly simple? Yes.
I am full of annoying advice. I had an argument with myself last week about just how annoying. My intent is always good. The antithesis of that line from one of Amy Winehouse's songs, "The message was brutal, but the delivery was kind." My delivery seems kind in my head, but brutal in its content.
As a blurter I have a long relationship with remorse.
I just thesauru.comed remorse. The note reads: Regret carries no explicit admission that one is responsible for an incident, while remorse implies a sense of guilty responsibility and a greater feeling of personal pain and anguish. Both of those seem a bit heavy-handed, but I am at a loss for a better word. My blurting sometimes causes me a pang, but is it regret or remorse? I have to think on that a bit longer.
Okay, let's go with regret.
Again - where am I going with all of this on this windy, hot morning?
I appreciate the early-morning ramblings that go on in my head, but harnessing this content is sometimes like herding cats. Good luck with that! Don't forget to write!
Here's the thing, the thingy-thing of it all - if you say nothing, if you sit and observe with no participation, that's when you might feel a pang of regret. I should reword that to read, that's when I'll feel a pang of regret.
So! Say what you mean, but don't be mean saying it. (I stole this entire line from a reality show I confess with chagrin.)
And I'll get on that horse and ride.