I am in a funk.
I want to post details. I better not post details. Believe me when I say the details are not interesting.
But the funk it leaves behind is. Interesting. Or at the very least, a tool. Learning tool.
I'm kinda puzzling through it this early morning right along with you dear grokker. Or dear mocker. ;)
So, I am pushing through. I think I am? I am! The sugar of yesterday becomes the resolve of today?
I was doing some reading this morning about cravings and resolve and depression and how biology affects these seemingly willpower-based behaviors. Kinda amazing how damaged internal systems will spiral our bodies into an even more damaged state. I can see that these things are not a simple fix.
Leptin resistance and adrenal compromise seem to be key in all of this. My insomnia and cravings seem to be only symptoms of a bigger problem. I have flirted with all of this in the past, but have not taken most of it seriously enough. I think it may be serious. You'd think just the insomnia would be incentive enough!
I am researching a local resource to help me as wading through all of this information is a bit overwhelming!
I am looking for the start. It isn't as easy as you'd think.
This plant seems representative in a way today. This is my cat's contribution to the decor. He seems to need some greens!