Mood

I've been in one. Maybe for 15 years! It's not a bad mood, yet it's not sugary, sweet goodness if you get me. I know you get me.

I'm in love with living and wish that along with that I'd GET what is and what cannot be. I'm annoyed half of the day and ecstatic the other half. I see things with great clarity, yet cannot put into words clearly what I need to say.

Crap!

I must be a woman.

Snarky and snarked upon. Obsessed and obsessive.

Oh to say what I mean and mean what I say - without second guessing myself! My poor husband! He's the one that hears the aftermath. I love him! Just yesterday as we were getting ready for a family party, he had offered to vacuum if I'd go with him for pedicures. Yes, that man adores getting peds! And it was wonderful. Relaxing. And now I have cute feet. Plus +

His vacuuming left something to be desired. And even though my house never looks perfect, all I saw were the flaws when he was finished. Woe is me! I am a snark-monster. Keep working on that girl! I am waiting for this revelation that comes with age, but it's not happening! Ha and ha! I am laughing here because I have such clarity after the fact. And blurt in the moment.

Blurting just may be the thing that murders me in the end. I'll blurt to the wrong person in traffic or on the phone or at the grocery store and BAM! You'll read about me in the newspapers. A random act of violence. Only me and the killer will know the truth.

What a rambling going on here! We have a few things happening as everyone does at times and we've gotten good news, waiting for good news, and longing for the good news.

Meanwhile, this happened not long ago -

My beautiful daughter married her much-loved-by-all-who-meets-him man. In Mexico. On the beach. It was perfection and maybe the best time we've had since my first daughter got married six years ago. Now I have two sons along with two daughters.

Congratulations Lorenzo and Randalian!

Tequila and Love

We've been  home from our family vacation for a few weeks now.

Daisies!

Sitting area in our lovely room. 

Important poolside reading. 

Views from room. 

Lobby

Pup got us the most beautiful room we've ever had. We were directly on the beach and were right above the little pergola where people were married every day. About five weddings on the beach every day we were there. I'm kinda estimating. There was a gorgeous setting off of the lobby where ceremonies were held as well.

The week was full of the usual shenanigans that accompany being away from home with endless amounts of free alcohol at your disposal. I won't mention any names, but one of us (could have been me) drank too much during the day at the pool and when she went back to her large and lovely room she swayed and tilted a bit in the shower wondering to herself, "Am I going to do the Mexico in Mexico?" Code for unbecoming behavior. She recovered enough to go to dinner with no ill effects. Score! Ha!

Hanging out with our kids was the best ever. We got to know the boys so much better. I'm in love with everyone in our family. We are so charming!

The boys, and sometimes the girls, played catch in the pool, we floated in the pool, we sunned ourselves like turtles by the pool.

We would get gussied up and go to dinner every night. We walked along the beach in the gorgeous dark, we did shots at the outdoor disco-like area. Even Pup did a shot or two. We laughed.

Our little grandbaby, safe in his momma (yes, it's a boy!) had a fantastic time as well. I hope Bella didn't find the rest of us too obnoxious. I'm certain she did a little bit.

When can I go back?

Yesterday Was Momma's Day

My Momma's Day present. I love anything in threes. As I said yesterday when given this beautiful necklace, "My family is much bigger than three, but two perfect girls came from me and that makes three." I might be mangling that exact memory, but this is what I meant. We are three women. Once they were two babies. This isn't better than that, but I sure love this. Love them. Hard. I love them hard.

When I was a young momma and my girls were small, the most wonderful gift I could imagine for momma's day would have been a day away from their wonderful little selves. Only because I was a stay at home momma for many years and it just always sounded heavenly. A day or two away, all alone, with a pile of books, and no agenda.

Now, the best momma's day is spending time with them. And their boys. I just love them so much! Sheesh I'm annoying today!

So - great momma's day. We grilled even though it was a bit brisk outside. Which meant we hung inside instead of out with my new deck furniture. That's okay. Summer is coming. It really is.

This week we all are preparing to go on vacation together. All six of us. Pup, me, Bella, her Big B, Lorenzo, and her RM. I need to settle on RM's nickname! I've had BT and now RM - decide!

Mexico is calling our name.

You'll Never Regret Saying It

My luggage coming home from Mexico. I'm lucky customs didn't put a tag on me.

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. 
~ Author Unknown

If I know what love is, it is because of you.
~ Herman Hesse

Hell is the inability to love.
~ Leo Tolstoy

If you love someone, be brave enough to tell them, otherwise, be brave enough to watch them be loved by someone else.
~ Unknown


A woman I used to work with when I had my corporate job came into The Turnstyle yesterday. She is 42. Getting married for the first time. And pregnant!

I hugged her while crying because isn't that the best? The very very best?

She is a GORGEOUS girl and I thought my heart would burst it was so happy.

Hug who you love today.

Never pass up a chance to say how you feel.

Mexico 4.12

April 22

Flight wonderful! Pup developed horrible migraine so waiting for the room wasn't easy for him. Had a quick lunch, finally got the room, and Pup slept all afternoon and night.

I took a nap, unpacked, and read/slept all night.

Random:

1. Playa is very international. We hear very little English.
2. I am skinnier in Playa. ;) Who really knows if this true. I am a believer.
3. The beach is topless. Pup is a happy man.
4. I am very sorry I didn't remember a Spanish dictionary.
5. Ears are still plugged from flight!
6. I am loving how everyone does not worry about their bodies.

April 23

1. My husband is not the only man to sneak a feel, a paddling, or a squeeze while applying sunscreen.
2. Listening to the different languages all around me is quite soothing.
3. I sleep really good in Mexico. Nine hours per night and naps during the day. It is heavenly.
4. I have decided that Mojitos contain no sugar.
5. I'd I get out of here the same size it will have been not only a fun week, but a miraculous week.

April 24

1. I am never going to worry about my body ever ever again. The different bodies seen in the past couple of days is amazing. It's mind-bending in a way. Not to mention freeing. At home (at least for me) I'm so worried about body image and what others are thinking. Here, it's like, "who gives a rat's ass"? Gotta love that.
2. American's are so arrogant, dumb, and stuck. We eat fast. We talk fast. We mostly speak one language. A lot of us are rednecks. The American smokers start smoking no matter where they are with no regard for their surroundings. Truly disgusting. Yes, I used to smoke. Are former smokers always critical of smokers? They are loud and smokey.
3. Europeans take their time. I like that. They relax into their dinner. They talk to each other and enjoy the meal. Much smaller portions as well. Americans wolf their meals while downing all the free drinks they can swallow. Sigh! I am a bitch today.
4. I could live here. I don't think Pup shares my enthusiasm. He likes it well enough. I'd love to have a tiny place to do family vacations. Wouldn't that be amazing?
5. Loud people are even louder than me. 
6. I'm darn quiet at times! I know - hard to believe. 
7. I do a lot of poopin' in Mexico.
8. Turned out to be way more than just poopin'. Just sayin'.

April 25

1. We seriously sleep about 12 hours a day. This is awesome to me, a sometimes insomniac.
2. We have decided to broach a family vacation with the kidlet's and their respective boys. To Mexico. Next year. My Pup is the best. His idea!
3. Today, we decided to get crazy and sit in a different place around the pool. So adventurous. You should have seen our vacation representative when I mentioned I'd never been snorkeling. He said, "What is wrong with you"? Hehehe. I will never tell him.  How could I when I don't know?
4. I've been awake since around 7 a.m. or so. It is 10:30. I could totally take a nap. I think I will.
5. Observation: never wear a one piece bathing suit to Mexico. Peeing is very tricky. A wet suit is not fun to pull up over your butt.
6. Chatted with the most charming man from Newcastle, England. I could listen to him all day. He wouldn't teach me any bad words. Shit.
7. Pup's favorite phrase this trip is "o-blay e-may." You do your own translation.
8. We decided we are going to fry in hell because we are mean bitches.
9. I'm sure we have been made fun of as well. I mean, we're not a bag of tortilla chips.
10. I love tortilla chips.
11. We were chatting with a couple from Kentucky that won their trip. Now that's spiffy. They were appalled, yet couldn't stop talking about the bare breasts they were seeing. Sparked a conversation about the inappropriateness of breast-feeding in public. My hand is bloody from biting it. No arguments in Mexico please Deborah!
12. I am no funnier here than I am at home. But I still look skinnier in spite of all the food I'm eating.
13. Really good food. Every day, at lunch and dinner, there is a new and delicious veggie dish I can eat with a bit of rice. Pup gets his share of ice cream. He's a very happy man.

April 26

1. 9-10 hours of sleep every night. I cannot get over this.
2. I have a mysterious rash high on both cheeks. I suspect a sensitivity to whatever the linens are washed  with.
3. We have not checked our email since Friday, April 20th. Wha???
4. The ocean is amazing at night.
5. Pup thinks I need to trip his fantastic every day. He thinks he's on vacation or something. :)
6. Pup thinks I need to show my boobins. I think I will save these magnificent specimens for those who love me. Again, just sayin.
7. We were craving some American snacks. Pup went to the drugstore and $25 later we had Doritos and Ruffles. You can take the ugly American away from home, but you can't remove all the ugly.
8. We wear wristbands like we're part of an entourage. At least that's the story I've concocted in my head.
9. I love Mexican people. They're so tiny! I'm 5'7", which is not that tall, and most of them come up to my armpit. They are sweet and tolerant.
10. It's 10:45 a.m. and I am needing a nap.
11. It's 12:45. No, I didn't sleep that whole time, but a bit of it.
12. We are inexplicably homesick. Truth be told, Pup and I are homebodies. We like our family, our pets, our home around us. Vacation is fun, but home is lovely.
13. But I can't lie; I sleep like nothing else here. I'd like to take that home with me.

April 27

1. We are on our last day. It's gorgeous, warm, I'm sated and happy.
2. I can't remember the last time I was so relaxed.
3. Pup has read four books.
4. I finished the Keith Richard's autobiography. Finally! Of course I am reading four books at the same time. I really am so weird.
5. We broke down and bought one day of internet access.
6. We are now on the beach, goofing on the internet like real American idiots.
7. The couple I met from Newcastle does not even have an email address! No staying in touch with them! They were truly lovely people
8. The couple from Kentucky never knows when I'm trying to ring their bells. Or they do and are too polite to call me on it.
9. We leave at 7:00 tomorrow morning. I'm sad and glad at the same time.

April 28

1. I am eating my goodbye-Mexico breakfast. It is still the most delicious bacon and coffee I've ever had. What is the secret?
2. I shared my bacon with a skinny hotel cat. My cat at home is seriously spoiled.
3. I am excited to be going home.
4. Goodbye Mexico! I adore you so.