Monday, February 17, 2020

I Have a Story for That . . .

We went to Vegas the day after Christmas a few weeks ago. Just for a couple of days. We hadn't been for five years or so and we thought it would be fun to gamble a bit. I booked us at the Bellagio because why not! It is a lovely hotel, but we had forgotten that Vegas is still smoking-friendly. Yuck!

So, we checked into our room and since it was still early morning (10:30 or so) we unpacked and thought we'd take a little nap before heading down to the casino.

About 1/2 hour in I started to feel uncomfortable. Then very uncomfortable. Like my tummy had a pain that I could stretch out, but no matter how much I stretched it would not go. It got worse and worse. I was rocking and moaning and throwing up. Scott wanted to call 911, but I kept saying, "It can't be THAT bad."

But it was and he called the front desk. Cut to me being ferried out on a gurney through the back halls and deep dark places in the hotel where we customers never go. I didn't care because I was crying. Like a baby!

Vegas emergency rooms are crazy! But the staff was great. One CT scan later and blood work I'm told I have the tiniest of kidney stones. Little stone, big pain.

But that's not the funny part.

They shot me full of oxycodone and gave me a prescription for a few more. So, drugged up to the max we go back to our room. The next day the stone was doing it's thing so I took a couple of my pills during the day. Pup and I watched a Godfather marathon and I was playing on my phone and napping. Out of it.


But not out of it enough to stop myself from ordering an office chair for Pup. An office chair that cost $785. Yep. A very fancy office chair. It arrived the day after we returned from Vegas. Pup knew I had done it, but I had NO MEMORY.

A few weeks later I received a beautiful map of Wisconsin. It came from ROMANIA.


For the next week or so I was fearful of what might be coming in the mail. I was unsupervised!

Pup is fired as a nanny.

Friday, February 14, 2020

Making the Change

It started with tiny things.

I try to smile for no reasons.
I tamp down unruly anger.
I don't drink much, but I'm drinking pretty much not at all.
I go to my therapist.
I listen to Spotify. It has everything you could want and things you didn't know you wanted.
I listen to my podcasts during my two hours of daily commuting.
I love my husband.
I love my family.
I love my job.
I love my damn pets. They save me with their love.
I cry when I damn well want to. No shame in that.
I embrace my faults. Because listen, we all have them. Yes even you! Hehehe!

All of me loves all of you. (Thank you John Legend.)

I many times think I am not special, yet yearn so to be special. But surprise! I am special because I am the only one of me. Good, bad, and ugly. All of our damn selves! It's okay to think we're special.

Changes.

A thoughtful love language.

The Green Train!

You looking at me?

The Tank and The Hulk

💕

No love for the car ride

Roosters and daisies

Furry Love

Wednesday, February 12, 2020

Turn Me on Dead Man - Beatles

I'm not sufficiently demoodied to write, but wanted to log something or dump something right out of my brain.

So - it's dumped.

Such a face.

Soakin' up the life.